The Undeserving
When you try forgetting him but you can’t
Remember he was never really all that
Remember he loved to talk .TO. you but never with you
And when you would text him he would never reply back
The best time to get his attention was drunken nights
Saturdays to be more exact
And although you’d always find yourself looking in his eyes
He never found his way to look back
Remember that no matter how amazing he could sing and play guitar
He never strummed the right tune with you
And even though you thought you were getting comfortable with him
He made sure not to get too comfortable with you
He apologized for letting it get too far
As if the feeling of feeling was too bazarre
Yet he crawled back when you invited him over
Dropped his apology when you gave him permission to use his boner
You two never spoke again
Only the hickeys stayed behind and felt as though they bled
You told people you hated him
Though you longed to be his friend
You never wanted anything more
Just someone to talk to and maybe occasionally score
But lunch and a coffee was too much to ask
Remember that every time you offered he always said he’d pass
Yet you thought he may have cared
He would softly scan every curve with his hand
Even loved your messy curly hair
But all you can assume is that it was an illusion
That all he wanted was sex and never saw you as anything resembling human
You looked at him as someone to groove with, he looked at you as a body to move with
It sucks
A lot
Yet, remember for every guy that screws you over to never fill yourself with hate
Meeting this boy taught you to let yourself feel for once and never force something that is meant to fall into place
So when you try forgetting him but you can’t
Remember he never deserved you because he never gave you a chance
